Sometimes I Feel Like Such A Hypocrite!

Sure, I write about all my plans, my goals, my activities, but, too often, I'm not doing the things I was planning on doing, not accomplishing my goals, getting sidetracked into doing other things.  Sometimes I even wonder, if I really have such a strong testimony, why don't I do the things I should be doing as an active Latter-day Saint?  When Judgment Day comes for me, what will I have to show on the record that I truly had a testimony, and really lived the life of a faithful Latter-day Saint?

I feel like I'm failing in all my tasks.  I am a valiant defender of the Restoration on the forums,  and I share the gospel on the Internet on You Tube, Facebook, and other places, but I'm failing in my missionary work with my own family and friends.  I've gone through the temple for my grandmother and my sister, but I have many more names to get ready, and much more family research to do.  I have 4 online study courses from BYU Online, but have only finished  the first one of a two part course on the Joseph Smith Translation.  I haven't even finished reading the books I got from the library, for my course on the Holy Land, that were due in September!  Worst of all, I miss too much church, and I'm not good in my calling, and not a good Visiting Teacher, either.

I also don't live up to the Word of Wisdom, as I should, and as I've preached so many times in my blogs and elsewhere.   I don't eat right, sleep right, exercise right, or drink enough water.  No wonder I'm sick so much of the time. 

Does all this make me a hypocrite, or just a struggling woman with feet of clay, and an easily side-tracked ADD mind?  If it's true that the path to hell is paved with good intentions, then I guess I'm on my way there. I have all kinds of good intentions, but not enough discipline to carry them out.  .

I guess I'll try again this week, and keep trying til I either die, or get it right. Endure to the end.